Addiction am depression is so hard on everyone. I know how you feel. I had 13 surgery from my neck to lower back an hip. When I finally understand that the addiction was from a Dr with script just wasn't cause the Dr gave it to me.
Other than Bret(who is no longer here) no one cares about anything I felt just how bad I've hurt everyone. No men really cared either I guess that's why I've been single for so long an stay inside where I couldn't hurt anyone. I'm so sorry for all the mess in your life..🙏🙏

Find a book for a spouse, that explains what depression is, how to support the one who has depression. People just don't understand depression.

Your post is all too familiar to me, in fact I could have written the same thing!

Good morning 🌞 my name is Lisa. It's nice to meet you. I'm sorry about you going threw all of this. It's really hard for us when ppl say they understand but they don't we can always tell. I've been right where you are but with my family. They act like we've done all this shit for attention...many years back I had a really bad time with my addiction....you know never do anything right,always thinking bout ourselves... That's finally when I told them all..,Hell yes you know I just woke up this morning and said to myself....hey today I'm going to become an addict an see how bad I can fuck up everyone's day.... sorry bout the language but it chapps my hind end how stupid some ppl can act they think they know everything. But my dear sweet Mom...who is gone she never ever gave up on me...my very best friend an cheerleader 😭so I just stay to myself which I realize isn't the best thing to do but to me it's better thanking my ass chewed every day I ve lost of my lifetime because of bad choices,.but I've been clean for bout 20 years but still get treated like a piece of shit...I don't kiss no one's butt so here I am...sorry so long hope you feel better soon just don't give up like I have it's horrible..God Bless..Lisa

Chuck, I was in your wife's shoes. I left when my own mental health became compromised as a result of codependency with my addicted husband. It was truly a life-saving choice, as we were both deteriorating rapidly.

If it's any consolation, he got his act together and within a year married a wonderful woman. That never would have been possible if we continued the way we were...