Avoiding not only your emotions but people, places, etc.
Absolutely...in my case..
No doubt whatsoever. In fact, whenever I need to be doing something really important or housework (which I hate) my first go to is my recliner with phone (scrolling this site among other things) and watching tv.
Yes...I have lost all friends and almost all of my family because of this Major Depression. The rest of my family only gives me aa break because they have a mental illness as well. So they know how it feels and what 'triggers' them as well. But they don't come around and I don't go by there very often. We love each other but we don't like each other! Only people on Facebook like me but they don't live with or have to deal with the 'real' me. I have lost alot of FB friends because I have been too negative or too dark in the things I post. I thought I was telling the truth and sharing my heart and soul on Cyberspace, only to realize just how 'nuts' I really am and how negative I can be. Nobody wants that in their lives - only the ones who identify with Depression, etc. I also posted beautiful things as well but the majority was negative and sarcastic. So, they avoid me as well! So even in the Universe I don't fit in. But, I got my eyes opened recently by the closest person I thought I had. Some actual truth that I couldn't see or recognize. It made a bit of a difference. It was very hurtful and uncomfortable to hear what people actually go through with me. What I have actually done all my life and what for. But it was the truth - someone finally told me the truth about myself and it opened my eyes a bit. If you can get someone to tell you the truth about yourself, someone close that knows you better than anyone else, it will help because I couldn't believe they hit the nail on the head as no Therapist could do. Now, I know a few things I can/need to change for real - it's a start. A little at a time. Nobody EVER told me the Truth because they were afraid of me. With the avoidance on both sides, coming and going, I became afraid of myself. So...sorry for such a long post. I found a place that I could vent. I hope it helps YOU somehow. 💜
Yes I do this most of the time now even though I am married and he is wonderful but I stay in my bedroom just about all of the time.
We have a pool so the grandchildren do beg me to get in it with them and I will, I go to my doctor appointments and on Fridays the 4 year loves yard sales and begs MiMi to get dressed and go but other than that I am in my bedroom with my tv, phone and IPad. I do have my telephone visits with my therapist so I don’t even have to go see her which is great for me.
I got worse 3 years ago when my brother passed unexpectedly and then my sister the next year and my cousin/sister last year and they were all my go to people and now I feel I have no one
I agree. I know how that goes. Don't forget taking naps too. I am working on staying focus.
I think so, definitely. When I am severely depressed, I don’t want to see or talk to anyone. It’s such a huge effort. But I find if I force myself to at least go to the gym, it helps me.