I͟ r͟e͟l͟a͟p͟s͟e͟d͟ w͟i͟t͟h͟ s͟h͟ a͟n͟d͟ I͟'m͟ j͟u͟s͟t͟ d͟e͟p͟r͟e͟s͟s͟e͟d͟. I͟ d͟e͟s͟e͟r͟v͟e͟ t͟h͟e͟ g͟u͟i͟l͟t͟ b͟u͟t͟ I͟'v͟e͟ b͟e͟e͟n͟ v͟e͟r͟y͟ s͟t͟r͟e͟s͟s͟e͟d͟ o͟u͟t͟ a͟n͟d͟ a͟l͟o͟n͟e͟. I͟ h͟a͟v͟e͟ n͟o͟ f͟r͟i͟e͟n͟d͟s͟ i͟ c͟a͟n͟ d͟e͟p͟e͟n͟d͟ o͟n͟ a͟n͟d͟ i͟t͟s͟ j͟u͟s͟t͟ a͟ l͟o͟t͟ o͟f͟ w͟e͟i͟g͟h͟t͟ o͟n͟ m͟y͟ s͟h͟o͟u͟l͟d͟e͟r͟s͟. I͟ n͟e͟e͟d͟. H͟o͟w͟ a͟m͟ i͟ s͟u͟p͟p͟o͟s͟e͟d͟ t͟o͟ d͟e͟a͟l͟ a͟l͟o͟n͟e͟?
What I have found about feeling alone is it's usually not true. There's always someone who understands the way you feel. Finding one is the hard part. Finding the strength to speak to them about how are you really feel is even tougher. Trusting someone enough to share these feelings with is the hardest of all. There is no one good answer that solves loneliness. I really wish I had a better answer for you. I've gotten used to loneliness. I know it's not healthy. At my job I'm the guy everyone comes and talks to if they have a problem because they say I'm easy to talk to and I listen and understand. I guess that's because I know what it's like to have no one and sometimes being the person who listens to someone else who needs you can be the 1st step.
Do 90 AA or other 12 Step mtgs in 90 days. Get a sponsor. Don’t quit before the miracle happens!
So many people blame themselves when they have a mental illness or consider themselves losers. You are NOT that. You are all precious, worth more than gold. In fact you know who you are. "Normal" - (yet to find the definition of normal) people wander around clueless and chase pipe dreams. You have a mental illness. Nothing wrong with that.
I know how you feel. I have very few friends and I feel like I am losing my mind. I can't concentrate on anything and can't hold a job long enough to make anything. I was driving around a few days ago with a gun and bullets thinking I was going to end it all. I ended up calling my youngest brother for help. Now I still want to kill myself but he has the gun, so I in some ways want to come up with another plan, but not sure of any other painless way to go. I just can't seem to handle it right now. I am at a loss as to what to do. I can't go to the hospital because I have no insurance and no money. I feel so ashamed that I can't support my kids. I am such a loser.
I don't know if you believe in God but your not alone you do have him he will never leave you