I haven't had much sleep, I feel like crap, I'm ignored, no I'm not being overdramatic. I relapsed with sh and feel so guilty. It's been sixteen years will this ever stop? I feel so ashamed cause I can't stop. I'm so tired physically and emotionally and I feel like I don't deserve it..does that make sense?
Hi @A MyDepressionTeam Member. You are not alone. Self harm can become an addiction and as with any addiction, relapse happens. Be kind to yourself as you work through this.
The first thing to do is identify what function your self-harm is serving, so you can address the underlying cause.
For me, I felt the need to induce physical pain to distract me from the mental pain I was suffering with. At the time I had undiagnosed clinical depression and once I started working with a therapist and taking medication (which is not necessarily the right course of treatment for everyone, but it was for me) my urge to self harm started to decrease and eventually went away.
This article ( https://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/cutt...) has a lot of useful information but I suggest finding a mental health professional to work with.
I’m going to add you to my team (if that’s okay). Here if you ever want to talk.
Upfront and honest I don't know what that feels like because I've never done it.
Everything feels so much more exhausting when you are tired that I do get. You have nothing to be ashamed about, this has been part of You for a long time and ad someone said it's an addiction. Don't feel you can't reach out to people here, I've found complete strangers have helped more than friends sometimes, no agenda. You know it's an issue and you recognise it's not healthy that's a big start. I don't know what support you have but you should know you have this mixed bag of individuals here to listen to you.
Thank you to everybody here💚 I do appreciate it. I know I have support here I was very exhausted. Not having restful sleep at all and when I did it was maybe half hour, I was also very drunk and I was having a bad day so yeah.anyways thanks for the support
We're all here for each other. Sending love & hugs. I go thru self harm myself. It's very hard . . .😢
Self harm is like any addiction, relapses are extremely common.
It sucks, but you just have to start from the beginning again.
It's hard, it sucks, it feels impossible sometimes.
Your feelings are valid, but you need to ask yourself if they are useful or if they are harmful to you.