Barb 28 days clean ?? Well that’s a friggin miracle for anyone that fights that disease . Don’t set urself for a relapse by giving excuses to yourself . There is never a good reason to open that door to hell again . I know from where I talk ; 35 yrs clean , 65 now . Do u hv some people in recovery u can call ? I’m always on here so if u feel like picking up pick up ur phone instead and text me . I’ve lived a long hard life ; no bullshit about picking up , just excuses . There is help to be found on the hotlines and here . Hopefully u get a therapist soon . Proud of you for your time now continue it . Just 24 hours don’t use . Cathy

Holidays seem to make depression and anxiety worse. People expect too much at times.

Ok Ty I'll try

I wish I had an answer for you. I can tell this your not alone chronic depression is what I have had it since birth. I have tried to end it 4 times. I know it gets really hard this time of year. I am feeling it as well. As for advice I am unsure I either sleep more than I should or not at all during this time of year. I hate that I can't find advice that will help. But I have to ask you to please hold on. Your worth it. I know that. Sleep is my single greatest weapon simply because I almost never remember my dreams. That I am sure is blessing for me. I dont decorate for the holidays myself its such hard work to do so. I just look at today I try not to look back nor do I loom forward back I cannot change forward I cant control or even venture to guess what it may bring but today right now that I can control to some degree. And I miss today if I look to tomorrow or yesterday that alone has helped to quite my mind. Well that and God. I wish I could offer so much more. I hope you always chose to stay alive and clean i understand how hard both can be. I believe in you and you should to have a great or at least try to

Hang in there. I hate the holidays too.