I’m the same way. I’ve felt numb for years. But something happened recently and I’m slowly starting to feel alive again. I had to push myself through the hard times, allow myself to cry, stay in bed on those days I couldn’t function, feel the bad feelings, all that stuff. Its taken years for me to get this little feeling of life back in me. I was just surviving from one day to the next. I don’t know what changed, but I tried to changed the way I talk to myself in my head. I tried being nice to me. I started separating facts from feelings. I don’t get it right 100% of the time, but I’m improving. And it is uncomfortable sometimes.

get on facebook or tic tok or dating apps like meet me i have had past issues where i feel completely dead like im living a third party life its hard but it was from me hiding my feelings and emotions for so long

Sending hugs and prayers. Do you have any interests? For example, public speaking. I used to belong to Toastmasters International. A world wide public speaking organization where you meet others and practice giving speeches and have contests. I am a member of a Church of Christ and I volunteer for many activities.

Sending hugs! I feel exactly the same. It's really hard to articulate my thoughts, but what your wrote definitely resonates with me. Wishing the best!

I don't feel invisible, I have friends and family, but I feel numb and useless. Everyday is just another day on the hamster wheel of life. I would sleep all day if I could. I think we just have to try and focus and stay positive, as this too shall pass.