For myself, once I talked to a counselor and I realized I had to forgive myself for not preventing the rape it helped me get over the first hurdle and as time went by and I truly worked on my self esteem and reminding myself I am worth living for then it got easer in time.

If you have Facebook look me up it's Norma Barnhart. The picture I have on here is my profile pic on there, we can private chat anytime you want

Sweetheart, could be maybe subconsciously you blame yourself? Let me tell you something, it's not your fault. Have you talked to a counselor about this? Someone who specializes in such things. I'm here if you need to talk

I hope your doing ok right now

I have been abused alot through my lifetime and find myself feeling the same way. I have had suicidal thoughts for years now and attempted more than 7 times in the last 13 years.