This is probably one of the worse things that I can ever experience in my life, if someone tells me what a failure I am and how I can't do anything right...well they don't usually say it in those words, but that's at least how my mind picks up hints from how people are talking to me. I know I'm not perfect. Nobody is perfect. But sometimes I feel like I'm the worst of the worst. I feel dumb, that I'm not worth anything.

How I deal with my failures basically, is planning a way out, so I can… read more

For most of my life I have felt isolated and like no one actually cares about me. I have a really hard time figuring out what emotions I’m dealing with and I feel like a bother to everyone. I feel as though there is no way I can have a future. With that said I feel like there’s no reason for me to feel this way. I know that I could talk to people but on the rare occasion that I do I feel like they would rather be anywhere else so why even bother. The thing is that I also know people that have… read more

I have lost my desire to live. I'm not suicidal, but thoughts of my death sits on my mind like a jack in the box waiting to spring into action
I am unemployed and with financial struggles, feel the pressure of getting a job overwhelming. i feel like I'm not able to commit to anything because I will fail. My depression takes over, my body hurts and I'm not able to get out of bed. I would just end up losing whatever job I manage to get
I have a wonderful partner who has been doing everything… read more

How do you cope when you are so tired of dealing with depression?

I need to lose weight, I have Congrstive Heart failure, suffering with my bad headaches, have vertigo, and some other medical conditions and only 49 almost 50 and so done with having my mental and health issues. I feel that I'm a failure because I had to retire before I wanted to 28 and a half years of being a paramedic and firefighter and having to leave that behind sucked. Also worrying that I'm going to die since I my father died when he was 50 just Scared and worried.

I just can't go on with my life anymore. I want to the doctor's yesterday if didn't go the that I hope that I was going to be. I just wanted to end my life all of the time. I hate my life I hate the way I live. I hate everything there's is it hate.

How do you do it? I just don't care about myself. I know how to care for myself. I'm asking how to care ABOUT myself.

Everything I do is for someone else or because I'm "supposed" to do it but nothing that has to do with my own wants and needs seems important enough to me to prioritize.

I know logically that I'm supposed to care about myself. Care what I eat or how healthy I am but I just...don't.

How do I change this?

I'm wondering how to handle my grown children who seem to have forgotten I exist most of the time. We were so close while they were growing up even with all the problems and hard times we often lived through. But now I truly feel they do not care about me at all or have any need to have me in their busy lives. It is truly heartbreaking and makes me question why this has happened and what I have done to drive them away. Plus it makes me feel hurt and angry all the time. I wish I could live my… read more

I have to make myself a chore list for everyday. I was wondering if anyone else needs to do this to make sure you get things done. I feel bad because I am an adult not a child that needs gold star's to do anything. But that's what I need to do.

My man had no time for things that would embarrass her like periods,I wasn't slowed to leave my pads or anything to do with being a woman,around her.she never said I love you.go figure I head I kinda answered my own question.?