Interesting what you said about your emotions being switched off. I felt that way when I was first on Fluoxitine. Unfortunately they're not really working for me atm but likely due to no sleep and SAD.

I know how you feel. I wish they could see me when I am good and then let me go into hiding until I am better. Being honest about it helped me. I have been in a relationship for 2 1/2 years. He understands it. And many do so don’t give up. There are many fish in the sea that will understand

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I am sure depression impacts on the people around us. I'm coming to the end of 3 weeks holiday and I have snapped more at my partner in 3 weeks than in 6 years.
I also find the meds switch my emotions off almost completely: I don't get sad, but I don't become happy either. And Don t bother complimenting me: it goes in one ear and out the other.