Thank you buffy. I'll try not to give up on myself. I think I let too much time pass after my last relationship. The qualities that used to be attractive are long gone. My singing voice is gone. I used to sing professionally. My teeth are gone, though I have dentures but hate them. I let my appearance go. Between depression, anxiety and never moving on after my last relationship, it just seems to be too late for me. I waited too long. Trying to date now would be difficult. My confidence is gone. Plus who really wants to deal with someone who's got so many problems. I'm sorry for being so down on myself. I guess I'm scared to even try anymore.

Oh I have this been more then once abandoned as a child by my family and they took me back at 5 from my grandparents who I was getting used to as my family

As long as you don’t give up on you Jon
I have seen how supportive you are to so many people here, you are a good man.
To accept something we have to understand it, I’ve had mental health illness since childhood and I have to admit to being unable to understand it even after all these years,
I hope that you can meet that special someone who will accept and love everything about you.
You deserve to be happy.x

I feel like everyone has given up on me. Friends and family. My ex-girlfriend. All because of my depression and anxiety. Nobody understands except for the people on this site.