Sounds typical of depression to me. Make yourself eat whatever you can manage. Better to eat little and often than nothing or have milky drinks or you will feel weak and worse. You're not alone, lots of people out there are putting on an act for the world but masking their true unhappiness.

I am a private person but talking about my issues helps me learn to manage them better. I wish you well.

Talking about your issues is not dwelling on them, its getting the issues out in the open so there can then be a plan in effect to get you on the road to better mental health

I don't really believe in this talking thing it just makes me feel like I'm dwelling on my issues

Hi, I can really relate to what you are saying and the answer is to defo see your doctor. You need to talk through what is going on with you just now. You really are depressed and having the suicidal thoughts confirms that. I really feel for you but you need to get talking with your doctor or for the moment confide in a good friend. Please take care xxxxx