I am able to hold down a job. I have to work as my husband is in school and I am the only breadwinner in the family. Most of the time when I am feeling well, I enjoy coming to work. Right now, I am feeling down and it is more difficult for me to get myself up and to work. I don't have a choice, as we need my income. I also put on a fake facade. I smile (even though it kills me) and try to be polite to everyone. This takes a lot of my energy. When I get home from work, I am so tired that all I want to do is watch TV, eat supper and go to bed.

It is something I have struggled big time with. I am surprised I still have the one I am in with the amount of sick leave I have had since I started.

I have absolutely no choice, I am in a relationship but my partner was let go from a 25 year job and was unable to get a new one. Canada can be so incredibly hard on experienced older workers....so I am the major bread winner in our relationship. I am at least 10-15 years away from retiring, so I hide behind this fake facade that I am fine, I get up Monday to Friday at the exact same time every am go to work, function fairly well (totally fake of course) at work, drive home and most nights shower and go to bed, sometimes I eat but I rarely go anywhere, I see my kids once in awhile but more than not I see family on the weekend. Isn't life fun ... that was a tad sarcastic.

Good plan. We all have to start somewhere!
Good luck!

I can't work due to many mental health issues that don't go into remission. I just started volunteering 4 hours on Fridays but doc said to stop so I am trying 2 hours at a time instead.