Hi I'm so sorry for your loss. I understand where you are coming from...when my mum died I also found out my fiancé was cheating and he also got her pregnant. This is a difficult time for you. Listen to your heart it is telling you something has changed. Also he has done this to you before, I think his actions are showing you who he truly is. I forgave my fiancé and married him...Needless to say we are now separated. This is your life and you must do as you choose but do it with your eyes wide open...he's a cheat through and through. I wish you the very best in whatever path you choose

Say goodbye to this relationship. He knows exactly that it hurt you and created doubt about your ability to be his only. Truth is, if he's texting your bf, he'll always find a way to keep other secrets. You won't keep something that smells bad in your home, well, he's. about as a bad smell you can get ----toxic in fact. Move on to a fresh smell!!! Sorry about your grandmother; she'll always be in your heart. When life's troubles invalid your being, ask yourself, "what would grandma do ......"

I've learned once a cheater, always a cheater. Just saying. Good luck