i was like that i got help for it i made me more happy

It's hard to get rid of the bad dialogue we have in our heads.
Try to think of something good about urself and build on that.
Keep saying I am a good person and I mean something.
It's not easy but keep trying xx

A lot of crying. To heal!

Alejah do you follow sport? Life is a game made up of quarters and halves. Every athlete knows that the only time they are of no value to the team is when they are no longer able to play the game. Every athlete knows that last week is finished and right now is their only chance to contribute.
Alejah, your not worthless, or useless because you are ALIVE. You are in the game of life. You have today, to be or do something. I don't know you but you must believe that your best game is right around the corner. One worth buying tickets for. Don't quit. You got this!

I feel the same way.....I hate looking in the mirror and it feels that everyone thinks that way of me. I have gained so much weight that I am totally ignored wherever I go......I hate it, but I can't stop the downward spiral that I am in.........