It's only recently that I've remembered and realised things about my past and having spoken to an older family member having these things confirmed as true

Yes all the time my ex died having infected me with hiv. My child hood was abusive with a lot of violence . I have been raped and have tried to kill my self. I have been used taken advantage off and made to feel worthless. Being gay I have been made to feel like a second class citizen and dirty. I am not a victim I struggle everyday but some days can be great. I will not give in

I have felt the same you just have to remember that you are here for a reason &, it's OK to feel alone & in pan. Your boyfriend is there for you & I will be there for you anytime to hug you. X

I understand how you feel. I haven't let go of my past. Both of my parents abused me as a child and my sisters too because they were both mentally ill. I can't let go of the past and I feel angry and sad. I cannot forgive because it's hard. I've been in therapy for three years and I meditate but the pain doesn't go away. I live on my own but my life isn't really going anywhere and I am uncertain about my future. Just wanted to say that you are not alone.

Hi kriss, do you go to church? I think most pastors counsel for free. You need support from family, friends, pastor etc