It's a big burden to shoulder alone. If you can't talk to your family of friends , please talk to someone here . S

It's taken courage to talk about one's self. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. There's no requirement asked of to be you. You can't bottle everything up and expect the one's who care to help with your misstep in life. But if you stay in the dark and challenge the light you'll probably win. Talk about changing career's. talk about your need's and want's, talk about how your day went. Only you can change what happens, your in total control.

You have to hang in there Vicki, no matter how hard it gets! You know the pain you are feeling now, if you die by your own hand you will be passing this pain to your Mom. She will not be able to handle it. To lose a child at any age is so painful!!! I hope you were at least able to say the Kiddash today! It might help just a little. A little is better than nothing. You have to FORCE yourself. Laying in bed all day is not going to help one bit, it makes it worst. Try to do one thing tomrrow, you haven't done for yourself in a while. Just one!

When you are , find me

wanna hear a true story? in 91' i stuck a gun in my mouth and pulled the trigger 6 six times...nothing. after 2 months of being in a psych-ward, a friend of mine took the gun after i tried to kill myself. after i got out of the psych-ward we went out to the desert and fired the same weapon 6-times. it fired all 6-times. im not really religious, but i knew it had to be divine-intervention, soon after my friend sold all of my weapons.. never did i ever buy another weapon. at the time i attempted suicide i didnt care anymore. i couldnt live drinking, and i couldnt live without drinking. i sure didnt have the help and people that i have on this site with the same or close experiences that ive had with suicide or really bad mental health issues. please hang out with us and find it in your heart that people here really do care about you and about each other!