I have made peace with the fact that need to take medication for the rest of my life, I also know that if I exercise, set properly, gobtobtherapy, take care of me not neglect forget about myself I remain in a better space. No hospital admissions no extra meds. That's a good thing, if you get flu or something you take meds. Now you have a chemical imbalance in your brain so you take you take something for it.

Psycho- active medication can't be taken on and off like headache tablets. If you do that you will mess your brain up. Please see your doctor.

Do you ever see a counsellor? I do take medication but having someone do listen to you with no judgement helps me.

U sound bipolar. It's sometimes hard to realize u need the meds. Once u face that fact and take ur meds for a few weeks u'll feel better.

I've recently come off venaflaxine & its the best thing I could ever do as my brain was always doing 100 miles per hour yet I was not moving an inch instead I was just sinking deeper & darker into myself which is the last thing you want to do that is to trust your own self. So coming off slowly has left my mind feeling a lot lighter & not stressed or over reacting in my own little sick dark world ,yet the battle is not over I still have issues similar to yours with emotional feelings that keep me locked in like a prisoner within myself My knowing the answer of replacing my own understandings feelings with spiritual principles then puts a much stronger force in support of you in making the proper choices because Jehovah is a God of love & that's what we need ,to be looked after as his children as a loving heavenly father he knows whats best for us...this is alil of my story