Honestly, you just have to push yourself. I was a depressed, anxious mess before I got a job. Applications and interviews were extremely stressful, and the first couple of weeks my anxiety was off the charts, but after I got used to everything, I felt much better. Stability and productivity will greatly improve your mental health. You just have to power through this rough patch before you can get there though.

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This is what I think, honey you are awesome.
Which ever choice you make is the right one.

I think you shouldn't go back to work just yet you should get you meds sorted and when you feel like you can handle work then go in but if it gets to much to do then take time out

I would suggest you need to put yourself first, your family should understand that you are too ill to work, if you're still self harming, I'd suggest seeing a counsellor before you do anything else, and allow your meds time to work, ensuring you're seeing your doctor regularly to monitor your meds, good luck, and whatever you decide, I hope you get well, and feel you've made the right decisions for yourself first, and your family second :) *hugs* x

Personally lovely, I dont think your ready, talk to your Dr, ask to change your meds if you dont think their doing what they should,
We all suffer with hardships, low incomes etc: but trust me, you will get through it,
Maybe leave the going bk to wrk for a little longer, untill you sort yourself no1 out 1st
This black dog, is a horrible illness,
People say they understand, but some days I dont even understand whats going on in my own head, and ive had it nrly 7 yrs now,
Hope you. Sort it all out, best of luck
Bonni3