I was diagnosed about 2 years ago.
I have had all kinds of therapy.
Nothing works.
I have got into a right rut and can't get out of it.
I. Have a lot of pain which does not help.
I'm not ready here to say too much.
But hopefully one day I will be able to talk about it here.

@A MyDepressionTeam Member you did good at the explanation.
My greatest move forward was pure acceptance and being allowed to speak. Even when I was wrong or my thinking was off. (such as blaming myself) I was allowed to say how, who, what and why.

yes read every word you said :) ...and I already love Deirdre too,shes amazingly uplifting! so,basically,i have to know what is right for me?.. I don't trust doctors no more and I wont take any pill,far too many in past and they havnt really helped,only on short periods of time,12months max for me(and that's looking back).You are not being preachy :) it helps me for understanding others....your imput means a lot and thank you DougB

I've had depression since 2001 like your self I've been on medication after medication in 2015 roped it for me as I was found at the side of a bridge I wanted to jump I wasn't admitted to hospital only for the mental health team to come and do a asesment I was on drugs in the past to mum the pain and all I did was cause more pain and heartbreak I've yet again been to a n e again after Christmas as I came off my meds and it wasn't good to stop for me as January is my late daughter s birthday for the past few Christmas s I took a od but woke up it was the wake up I needed if I'd od'd that whould of been selfish of me as I tend not to talk I have ptsd and bi polar and being nearly paralized in walking wounded but I'm still alive I live day by day now as I have given up on the mental health teams as they make me worse going over and over again one day I will beat this as I've constant reminders every day I moved near to the place I nearly jumped from in a tower block i f I can't jump of a bridge I live 11 floors up I'm not scared that I'm going to do it again I'm scared of highs and that scares me as I have virtigo I came off drugs and alcohol by myself but by bit doctors only give you meds to make you like a zombie I've had a long battle but the wars not over depression I will beat you before you take me

That's ok we will all be here for you when you are ready to talk we are always here any time you want to talk about anything you are not alone