I was apparently diagnosed with depression way back in the early 90's after my younger brother had O.D on heroine, at the time I was happily married and with two young daughters.(my brother was an addict for about 7yrs,he died 25yrs old and I dreaded this happening) ...for years after I was on medication,prozac and so forth,swapping and changing as nothing felt right... I used to go for regular medical assessments every year,then it was like.i no longer excited and it all stopped but I… read more
I was diagnosed about 2 years ago.
I have had all kinds of therapy.
I have got into a right rut and can't get out of it.
I. Have a lot of pain which does not help.
I'm not ready here to say too much.
But hopefully one day I will be able to talk about it here.
@A MyDepressionTeam Member you did good at the explanation.
My greatest move forward was pure acceptance and being allowed to speak. Even when I was wrong or my thinking was off. (such as blaming myself) I was allowed to say how, who, what and why.
yes read every word you said :) ...and I already love Deirdre too,shes amazingly uplifting! so,basically,i have to know what is right for me?.. I don't trust doctors no more and I wont take any pill,far too many in past and they havnt really helped,only on short periods of time,12months max for me(and that's looking back).You are not being preachy :) it helps me for understanding others....your imput means a lot and thank you DougB
I've had depression since 2001 like your self I've been on medication after medication in 2015 roped it for me as I was found at the side of a bridge I wanted to jump I wasn't admitted to hospital only for the mental health team to come and do a asesment I was on drugs in the past to mum the pain and all I did was cause more pain and heartbreak I've yet again been to a n e again after Christmas as I came off my meds and it wasn't good to stop for me as January is my late daughter s birthday for the past few Christmas s I took a od but woke up it was the wake up I needed if I'd od'd that whould of been selfish of me as I tend not to talk I have ptsd and bi polar and being nearly paralized in walking wounded but I'm still alive I live day by day now as I have given up on the mental health teams as they make me worse going over and over again one day I will beat this as I've constant reminders every day I moved near to the place I nearly jumped from in a tower block i f I can't jump of a bridge I live 11 floors up I'm not scared that I'm going to do it again I'm scared of highs and that scares me as I have virtigo I came off drugs and alcohol by myself but by bit doctors only give you meds to make you like a zombie I've had a long battle but the wars not over depression I will beat you before you take me