How brave of you to admit this. God Bless You for your honesty. I hope your Meds are helping you. Keep trying every day and know that we are here for you.

Hi there , i know what its like to go through something like that , and it hurts to know that the one person you thought was your father could ever do that to his daughter, thats makes you feel sick to your stomach cause you no longer can trust him let alone leave him around your daughters or children. Im very proud of you that you had the strength to post this im grateful that you were willing to cut ties with him for the sake of your daughter but this is the best thing you could ever do. but I experienced it at the age of 13. I have forgiven the person and they were my sisters partner. But experiencing something like that could destroy a person. i mean, im one of them . but the best thing to do is . do things that would make you happy and never let him hold you back from what you would love to do. cause to be honest if you let it get to you. then they know that they have control over you. Just keep doing you and your family and smile cause killing them with kindness is better than you feeling down and out. When you can do so much better without that weigh on your shoulders.keep your head up and be strong. Loves up.

Wow! Thanks for that Maree. I swear I always thought it was me & my "illness," but yes,you say its control, and yes, he is very controlling with others also. It all makes a lot more sense now and I can forgive myself for my "bad & disgusting" thoughts. His actions are weird and I do feel very nervous & uneasy around him. I will trust my own instincts & keep a proper distance. Thanks for that Maree, it's set my mind to rest. Took a while for us to get there but it's really hard coz it's such an evil beastly male thing. I feel for you coz nothing has ever happened to me, thou I have always kept a distance; to have it happen must be so truly devastating and a mockery of life. I think if it happened at this stage of my life and balancing such an unsteady tightrope on my mental health, I would not have the wherewithal to handle it. So TY. ((Hugs))

I cannot believe the arrogance of men, OK, I know I'm generalising, but truly, I've not met a good one. My father gave the seed of life to my mother and my brother and I were the result., he then proceeded to pick at it, poke it peel it apart layer after layer, bite it and spit it out. He didn't abuse either of us sexually, but his behaviour ruined 3 lives. Not long ago, he told me he was horrible to mum, so that she wouldn't hurt as much when he left her, well, no, she didn't coz she anaesthetised herself by becoming an alcoholic. In the meantime, I was groomed and threatened, trapped into a fake relationship where a 17yo who satisfied his every fantasy at my expense. Dad then told the courts my brother would be better with him and he began a new life with his future 2nd wife's daughter and my bro, the perfect little family unit. But disaster struck when his wife's daughter fell and broke her neck, the poor girl paralysed from the neck down. Whether due to anger or jealousy, she mentally & physically abused my brother until his 16th birthday when he walked out. They have had no relationship to this day. I, however, did not escape him, too scared, too timid to turn from him when he said and did things that were....odd.....too personal....shameful.....embarrassing???? ive gone on for too long again and am finding the words to,explain my father too,hard when I am tired. I've never spoken about his attitude towards me. Mum (she did recover from alcoholism) took the fallout when I came home after being with him in various traumatic states leading inevitably to another depressive bout, but was incapable of helping me knowing and fearing him as she still did. ((hugs)) x

Honey I have been molested on and off most of my life I relate how embarrassing to admitted this to anyone I suffered a lot over it I'm on anxiety and depression meds I here for you